Wow - Bittersweet!

Well, the last couple of weeks have been hard!!! I have actually been having a great time, meeting up with friends that "some" I haven't seen in quite some time. It is really amazing to me to realize how many people I have missed and truly enjoy! The reality of the last 4 years and what I have missed and what I have become is hard. I am torn between reconnecting with "friends" and having the time of my life here, and moving 1700 miles away!!! While not working, I have been doing lunch with this person, happy hour with another and then dinner with someone else all to say goodbye! There is still a list of people that I will say that I was unable to make that last "goodbye" too, and will regret not having enough time to meet with them and tell them how much I care and will miss them! I said goodbye to my extended family this past weekend, and that was hard! Tonight is my last night here and I just got home from saying goodbye to a group of my friends. I am sitting here thinking about this "actually" being my last night here! I just walked in my nieces room and watched her as she slept, thinking my god I can't imagine not being a part of her life everyday and every week! Then the thought of not seeing my parents! Wow - I can't even go there! Yes, I am crying now! To my parents, family, friends and old neighbors - I thank you with all my heart for the unconditional support you have given me through this time of life. I love you all and will miss you more than words can say!

With that sappy stuff being said, I know that I need to do this for me! I am going to Seattle with an open heart and open mind, knowing that things may be tough, but the grass is always greener on the other side! I hope, no I know, that in this journey in life, I will grow into a much happier and healthy person. I am ready for the challange and up for the change.

We are leaving tomorrow morning and I will try and update as soon as I can! Thank you all again. I will miss each and everyone of you!!!